I serioudsly debating about making a new layout coz this layout doesnt inspire me to want to blog wierd? no? I dunno and as Amy says i really need to go comment on peopleor else i wont get any traffic. But its almost like i dunt want any really.I mean i do but then i dunt. Coz quite honestly im no soo interested in other peoples daily lives nor will i tihnkthey be in particular interest in mine. At least in DeviantArt i hvae the interest in their art therefore when they post a journal i SOMETIMES read it and if its my actual freinds of course i go and read it.I guess the plus to DA is that their journal somehow relates to their art if not then well its just a journal.But i at least have that connection with the poeple that we are artists...or attempting to be artists.And simply we all love art.

so life huh? once again blan and in hopes of going on vacation this year if not then really working coz i need a NEW frigggin job!When it comes to life sometimes i make like i have it bad but i know i don't and when i compare my situation with others im pretty luckky.But yet my life is still not complete. I do feel like im stuck (to only an extent) that is why im seriously looking into going to University of San Fransico. I thought i had familyapparently not. I have family in SAN JOSE which is like 1hr away. I ran the idea by my parents while we were having our vegen-ish dinner and they said no.They said "I'll learn bad" (in direct translation of what they said) im like what? i mean learn bad! how am i gonna turn into a bad person or become "corrupted" they're gonna say that as long as i leave Houston!Then im never gonna grow up and be independent! I mean i gave them the option if they HAD to choose 

LOS Angelese VS San Fransico

They picked LA! Bc my grandmas there...tooo bad that isnt where i wanna go!!Somehow i think that once i get in and set my mind to it. I mean im not gonna make them put me through college in hopes of the GOVT(FASA) and student loans will be enough.I mean when it comes down to it. Im just gonna do it. And i really dunt think they can do anything about it. And its not like im doing this for any wrong reasons. I just really need to grow up and leave home.

with that said news on new people/guys/friends

sooo yea Mike friends of Thi's that i met is super cool! Thi and i both agree that like are soooo excited and looking forward to hanging out with him!And its not like we like him BC WE DONT! Totally just see as a friend but he is so fun to be around. And i think finally i have a guiy friend again. Ya know the comfort of simply having/getting some attention from a guy whetheror not your attracted/interested in them just getting attention from them. Its nice. i mean the last time i had a real guy friend and i was comfortable enough to just be me was Ladipo and well i barely talk to Ladipo now. Thatsok tho cozi know he has a life and we email each other once on a while. Miss the guy alot (my one and only guy best friend) but now Mikes super and thats cool.

I made a him picture/art piece cause he had asked me to draw him an apple so he could hang it up at his apartment. here it is.anyways...one of my friends likes him...kekeke or as she says "No I DONT!" we can sooo see through it...lol sooo yea theres a bit drama there i guess...

OH damn. i hung out with her friends @ Cashbox and seriously etablished why i AM NOT friends with AZNPridish people.I mean dunt get me wrong her ACTUAL friends who were the girls were nice but the two guys we were left with by the end of the night were such LOSERS!I sound mean but i mean its fine if they are dorks right coz i AM one myself!BUT in this case its "i was such a dork in High school, but now since im on college or just graduated im suddenly super cool now."I hate people who try to act hardcore like OH im so gangsta and im SOOO COOLLL! WTF? thats also why we find EMO kids annoying.

Which reminds me of a certain friend! damn i soo wanna lash out at her right now.I mean the way she treated her bestfriend! who is my close friend too! UGGHH! And her whole "Im soo cool so im bettter than you crap" i mean i thought it was in my head.Apparently not. BC she acted that way around my friend too. WTF is wrong with the world. How can someone you care about so much change into something so different and have them treat you like shit! This is why i hate i mean dislike (hate is sucha a harsh word yet its soo close to what im feeling right now) "AZNPRIDISH" people because its sOOooOOo important to be COOL! and GOSSIP GOSSIP GOSSIP!There is sooo much more to the world than that.

Ugh damn hungry and mad now. gonna go grab some breafast..or more like brunch.

♥ kern

Hey guys nothing really new here.

Life.

I actually posted a SUPER long entry like a weeek ago BUT xanga being the crap it is suddenly said

"please sign in"

I was like WTF!?? Are u telling me the long ass entry i just did is gone...*press back* NADA! Everything GONE! Into the black hole of cyber space!

Yes i am indeed posting again but nor do i have the "moment" i had during that moment....you knoe when you're in that writng mode spiling ones gut onto a blog pad....*sigh* too bad im not one of those people that post all the time a "frequent poster" i really should do more journal entries but unless i feel i have someonthing to say whats the point right? who wants to hear about nothing and why would i want to type about nothing its boring....lol indeed.

But today i have a special treat for our Pirate and Johnny Depp Captain Jack Sparrow fans lol....

*drum roll*

My 20th and Amizzles 19th Birthday Party! hehe

THEME: PIRATES Arghhh!!! and Sailors...lol <--- losers!!!

Of course being the Birthday girls WE had the awesome names

I was,

KAREN THE KUTTHROAT

Amizzle,

AMY THE ATROCIOUS

We are HARD CORE! ARGGGHHH MATEY! >< LOL

The following are our fellow buckaneers,

Bloodthirsty Phyllis
PeggLegged Phillip
One Eyed Vincent
Dirty Dog Jason
Swashbuckin' Jenni
Plank Monkey Hugo (Virginia) *inside joke that shes really a boy name Hugo*
Scalliwag Stephanie

And here are some pictures now...

Me ORANGE ARGGHH!!! >< hehe and heres me and Bloodthirsty Phyllis!! GRRR!

MUAHAA See PhiPhi won a "prize" for collecting the most tokens (us bday girls) were giving out so her "prize" was getting PIED! >< hehe but but there is another twist! Her REAL prize is she gets to pie whoever she likes (except for the BDAY girls...thatis) mUAHAHah

Looks its argggh Pirates Flag mate! (i drew it with bleach on a black piece of cloth...you like? I do lol its freaky looking...)

Haha there goes my Buckaneer partner Amy the ATROCIOUS pickin' on our little deck sweeper Plank-Monkey HUGO...

"SWEEEP THAT DECK CLEAN!"

Yuuup those are the pics....aren't we puurty!! >< there's a lot more but i don't feel like posting them...

yuuup as for my ephipany...it will actualy never go away i just need some time and inspiration to gather my words to spit it out onto this blog here...

*wheel fortune music plays* (waiting...)

Ehhh....not there yet...

Well im listening to Jack Johnson - Better Together *sigh* ♥ IT!! THANK YOU Amizzle for this awesome gift! which reminds i need to burn you a copy RIGHT NOW! (goes and burns cd *in process of burning*) *burning* (damn my computer is slow)

Yes well it is still burning and shall keep typing while i wait.

-So what is the update on you right now Karen?

"Nothing really. Just trying to find a new job that pays more. Lucky Village's $6.70/hr pay isn't cutting it and i only work one day so that is not working for me. I want to work on weekdays after school. Lets hope i can find one...

As for school im still gonna go into Graphic Design but now im looking at either going out of state or maybe even UT, I have a friend who's gonna go there next semester so I'm gonna get feedback from her on how well the Art Department is. My original choice Texas State at San Marcos is OUT now coz simply too rural and apparently its like a UH now...(easy to get into...etc etc) I feel the standards have shrunk...SO instead of going ALL the way to SA i can just go to UH then transfer into UT or out of state. Cause HCC credentials arent the most...popular? lol sucks i noe."

-So how is your love life going?

"Mmmm very blasé. No real interest right now.

LOL thats why Me and Amizzle are creating drama for ourselves. LOONGG STORY SHORT Her marriage to Johnny Depp and her "boyfriends" with Rzezzy and Cornell. And as for me...lol my attempt to steal Stephen from Phyllis is over and i fully support their engagment. Thus Nickelback and i are SOO over. Long story there,buts its over and i didnt really like him either emotionally or physically i just pity him bc he made such bad music and he said i was his MUSE so...yea. Its over end of story. Oh and my drama with Ricky and my Brandons (Boyd and Flowers) Yea Stephanie was trying to be Mole girl (Aly) and steal Ricky from me buts ok we settle things out i got Chad Micheal Murray to distract her. LOL i did not mean to make that soo long. its okie.

As for me real love life. NOPE. Nothing special. I'm tired of "helping" those broken souls that neeed love and sympathy from us. I've discussed this with my friends and establish that we're broken enough and we don't need anymore drama in our lives. I mean if you are really worth it i will pour my heart and soul out to be there for you but if your not...sorry find another person coz im not the one for ya. Gosh i sound so mean but its true.

I think for me to be fully happy (not that im not happy right now) Im just content with life...i mean nothin special is happening. I have my friends and family its all goood. but yet there's something missing...so i guess for me to seriously be happy i think i just need to get out of Houston and "find myself" (sounds so cheesy but its sorta true) thats where college comes into play, or find someone who can make me happy. Which i do not intend on finding coz if its meant to be then fate will bring him to me. Sad and optimistic all at the same time. LOL im a sad yet happy person. Irony is so confusing yet beautiful."

THE END. ♥